We are going to a resturant and after that we are going to a nightclub and get really drunk, heh. And if I'm lucky I'm getting so drunk that I stab a knife into my stomach. After I have left my friend of course. I don't want to expose her for that.

But I guess it's only a wish, I think I'm to weasel to go through with it...

Anyway, I have this huge dilemma. I don't find anything I can wear. "does I look fat in this?" "oh, yeah, u have to lose at least 20 pounds before u can wear it" I discuss with myself.

Hmm, can be exciting to see what I decide....

Haven't talked to my father yet, I don't want to. His so mean. I hate him! But I have to face it, after all, he is my father...

Take care!

-Nemi-

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